I’ve met so many new people and I’ve even been reunited with childhood friends. My classes aren’t as bad as I anticipated and I didn’t spend as much on books as I had anticipated. I still need a few supplies and I need to start looking for a day job. I’ve been landing photography gigs so I have some pocket change but other than that I want to be completely focused on school. I’m moving downtown so I’ll be able to ride my bike to class and so I can have a home away from home. I’ll actually be living with 2 girls but they are both awesome and I can’t wait to have them as roommates. I’m buying my best friends car that is full of all the best memories from high school and fall weather is around the corner. I’m still a little stressed but I know that once I’m moved out everything will begin to fall in place and I’ll have a routine down as far as classes are concerned.
In other news, last night I actually met someone in real life that I follow on tumblr! You should follow her too! brooketindall.tumblr.com
I don’t know what’s stirring up inside me but it’s bitter, raging, and incredibly weak. It’s making me weak. This year is on track for being one of the best years of my life yet I find myself basically in tears right now for no apparent reason. Maybe it’s because my parents suck. Maybe it’s that part of me that died with Adam that just feels like dying all over again as the 3 year anniversary comes along. I feel like shutting down. As if my batteries are running dry but they can’t be replaced. I can’t buy anything to keep my chin up. A handful of people I really care about are actually in the same state now but I feel as though they are more distant than ever. I really feel like I have nobody right now. The more people I meet, the less I really know. Everyone I’ve read about this summer and I’ve come to look up to either died young or grew just old enough to put a shotgun to their head. I don’t know whats going on with me. I want to feel something real again. I don’t need adrenaline or alcohol. God give me something more. I’m tired of running around in the rain trying to catch raindrops of purpose with nothing but my bare hands. Sustain me or lay me to rest. This world is too small for a vacation.
“He got up and howled. Something about the wind and the configuration of the trees and outcroppings gave his voice more volume; his howl twisted and multiplied in the sky in the most satisfying way. He howled more.”—The Wild Things by Dave Eggers (via skinnydreams)
Temper trap Pandora station
Same clothes from last night
20 books for $20
My worn out canvas toms
Thinking about the state fair tomorrow
Reminiscing on last night
Can’t wait to buy a microphone
Wanting a bagel
Wishing my dog was with me
Brainstorming photography ideas
A white woman, about 51 years old, was seated next to a black man on an airplane. Obviously disturbed by this, she called the air hostess. "Madam, what is the matter?" the hostess asked. "You obviously do not see it," she responded. "You placed me next to a black man. I do not agree to sit next to someone from such a repugnant group. Give me an alternative seat." "Be calm please," the hostess replied. "Almost all the places on this flight are taken. I will go to see if another place is available." The Hostess went away and then came back a few minutes later. "Mam, I spoke to the captain and he informed me that there is also no seat in the business class. All the same, we still have one place in the first class." Before the woman could say anything, the hostess continued, "It is not usual for our company to permit someone from the economy class to sitin the first class. However, given the circumstances, the captain feels that it would be scandalous to make someone sit next to someone so disgusting." The hostess turned to the black man and said "Therefore, Sir, if you would like to, please collect your hand luggage, a seat awaits you in first class." At that moment, the other passengers who were shocked by what they had just witnessed stood up and applauded.